Can't someone...

Mood: Tired, sad, lonely, bored...and curious
iTunes: June, Summer, Rose - Umbrellas

...tell me what they think of me? In all it's entirety and honesty?

I don't think I really know how theme that everyone else does. I think that I spend way too much time lying to everyone else I don't know what to tell myself. Although, I don't lie exactly everyone, there is one person that I couldn't lie to if I tried, probably, I would just fail. Um... Yeah.

Also, I wish that I could be lessselfish and bitchy and all around retarded. I don't think I show things enough...maybe that's why I'm in counseling.

And I need to stopdoing stupid things just to reassure myself of things I already know. All it does is hurt people, maybe, but at any rate I feel sad when I do it. I don't know how that's any different than any other time....

-megan.

p.s. This is the 100th entry...it's been a while, hasn't it.