there is too much

to wait for. especially because i don't know how long i'll be waiting...

if i knew it would make it easier, but i guess that's not how things go around here.

i guess it works.

i need to talk.

that was

easily the worst thing i have ever done

if i could hear it right now this would make me cry

Only One
Yellowcard

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

moving

all kinds of moving going on pretty soon here, because we are moving, and my grandparents are moving, and my other grandparents are moving, and then my aunt and uncle have moved, and that is all.
i think that's kinda obnoxious, because can you imagine just how lost i will get all the time.

and i really hate "the children's song" by trick daddy. how freaking weird. however, i have recently downloaded the jack johnson cd, and it is quite good. not the curious george one, or whatever. in between dreams.

i'm tired.....
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2:08 am

Mood: Bleh.
iTunes: Dresden Dolls.

My cat is having a nightmare in my lap. I'm feeling thoroughly alone, and bored, with almost everything. Everytime he wakes up, he hits his little head on the edge of the counter. I need to get out...and go waaaay away from here, I'm thinking. Every so often he wakes up a little and curls into a tighter ball and starts shaking. I'm kind of afraid to leave here, though. I'm also kind of afraid to move him, he's not a nice cat...