What a great deal...

Mood: Pretty freaking amazing
iTunes: I-E-A-I-A-I-O - System Of A Down

I get to go tell my best friend in the whole world that I'm grounded...but just from seeing her. How do you even do that? It wouldn't be so bad if I was like, "Oh, yeah, my parents are retarded, I know."

But it's not like that...I agree with them. Like, I'm allowed to hang out all I want with my nonmember friedns and a select few from church, but not my closest friend ever.

And that makes sense to me.

What do I saaaay?!

-megan.

HAHA...I cut back.

1. Silikon - Modeselektor & Sasha Perera - This is the weirdest sog ever. I hate electronica.
2. If I Die - Something Corporate - Probably their most boring song ever.
3. Get Low - Lil Jon - Yeah. I do realize that none of these three songs so far have even the slightest thing in common. I didn't used to think my tastes were that varied...
4. Fit But You Know It - The Streets - I just like their voices. And the fact that he tells the girl how annoying she is. I think I jsut heard that...yeah.
5. Firelight - Snow Patrol - This song is kinda boring after a while too. A lot of their songs are kinda the same, if you dig into their older stuff deep enough.
6. Wasted And Ready - Ben Kweller - He sits on a giant strawberry in the video for this song. And sex really actually has nothing to do with spaghetti.
7. New Slang - The Shins - This song is pretty...that's about it.
8. Graceland - The New Pornographers - Everybody who has ever looked at my iPod has shrieked, PORN?! as soon as this song came on. Uh...no. Sorry.
9. Line And Sinker - Billy Talent - Nothing new to say here.
10. Acoustic #3 - Goo Goo Dolls - Yeah, you try playing this song. It sounds easy, doesn't it? YEAH WELL IT'S NOT.

-megan.

...What about it?

Mood: Good but tired.
iTunes: What About Everything? - Carbon Leaf

Slapstick writing isn't funny anymore. Give it up, certain unnamed blogger I have been reading for over a year.

-megan.

Hey Where You At

Mood: ...nothing
iTunes: Mr. Jack - System Of A Down

...I don't even know.

I think I did the right thing. And I think I'm happy.

-megan.

None

Mood: ICKY
iTunes: Prison Song - System Of A Down

So. I'm not a parent, I know.

But it seems to me that when your daughter comes to you with something that maybe you don't understand, and maybe it hurts, the best thing to do is not make her cry until she pukes.

Just a thought.

Needless to say I feel like shit today, and I have no phone, and no car, and I don't want to go home, and it's snowy, and cold, and...did I mention I don't want to go home?

Although things have been going really well at school today. I don't know why, they are just good. But it really doesn't help.

-megan.

Considerate

Mood: Good!!
iTunes: Hynotize - System Of A Down

I have decided it's the best thing ever when various 17-year-old boys that I like call me from hanging out with their mom at preschool.

Even if they are suspended for drinking and being a moron in general.

But it's okay, because today is the last day of that whole issue and he'll be back at school tomorrow.

And I am a little too excited about that, or so Zanna tells me. But it'll be a good time, really.

-megan.

Now I'm confused

Mood: Still bad. Worse, even. Bad bad bad.
iTunes: Ghost - Umbrellas

Boys are stupid. And I'm pretty sure that's the biggest understatement ever.

But I still have my caramel-raspberry frappucinos.

And my iPod.

1. Bittersweet Symphony [Cover] - Something Corporate - I have no less than 3 versions of this song. This one's the worst, it cuts off like right in the middle. And it's live. Eh.
2. Pull My Hair - Bright Eyes - This is good...one of my favorite Bright Eyes songs. I used to listen to it for hours on end, not really sure why.
3. Old Soul Song - Bright Eyes - Sad. Just.
4. The Calendar Hung Itsef - Bright Eyes - What is this? Jeez. I love this song, though. Reminds me of someone.
5. You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison - My Chemical Romance - I once heard this song referred to as "homoerotic." I don't see it, but maybe I'm not listening hard enough.
6. Open Road Song -Eve 6 - You should go listen to this song while driving out on roads on Camano Island in the middle of summer in my car with me. It's the most amazing thing I've ever experienced, I think. And I've experienced lots of amazing things.
7. Truly Madly Deeply - Savage Garden - Before now, the last time I heard this song I was working in the WebbSki rental shop. No joke, they found a "NOW!" CD from AGES ago and then listened to it. Because they hadn't quit drinking until four hours before that, and had three Rockstars for breakfast. YEAH, BOYS.
8. Better Together - Jack Johnson - I used to hate Jack Johnson with a passion, but we're cool now, don't worry.
9. The Key To Gramercy Park - Deadsy - Yeah, I've got my underground goth rock. Where's yours? Go watchthe video for this, by the way. Pretty sure I'm in love with...uh, what's his anme. With the guitar and eyeliner.
10. In Other Words - Ben Kweller - This song used to make me sad. Now it makes me think.
11. My Friends Over You - Newfound Glory - I think that parts of this apply amazingly to me right now.
12. Wayfarer - Hot Water Music - I like this song. I rarely listen to it, and thusly have nothing to say about it.
13. Zombie - Cranberries - Her voice kinda scares me. I still like it.
14. Girl - Beck - I hate Beck. So much. And for no real reason, either. But this song is okay...for the frist two times. After that, it's like, 'EGHHSJDH I'm going to murder myself.'
15. Californa Uber Alles - Dead Kennedies - Kinda creepy. And it reminds me of my...younger brother who is GINORMOUS. Good song though.

-megan.

Who even

Mood: I'm not happy
iTunes: Hurt - Nine Inch Nails

So, pretty sure that I spent the night at Zanna's house on Saturday night, along with a couple other girls, right. Apparently, one of their moms is accusing us of drinking, at her house.

AT HER HOUSE.

I think what pisses me off the most, is that she thinks we're dumb enough to do that. Honestly, if we were going to do something like that, we would pull it off.

Anyway. Now she's checking all our MySpaces and calling our parents to tell them if we have anything that's at all suggestive or whatever.

Luckily the group of people I hang out with is almost as well organized as some kind of gang, and I heard about this fairly early on. But still.

She accused me of drinking, and then told my parents. And my dad wouldn't even look at me last night. That hurts me a lot more than almost anything anyone could do to me. I kind of hope she knows that we're no longer 4, we're actually quite a lot older, and she may have fucked with a lot of people who have kind of a lot to hide, and this sounds really retarded, I'm aware, but we're mostly really good at hiding what we need to. Also she should know that if one of us goes down, we all do. And she'll no longer have the perfect youth program filled with happy teenagers she thought she did. Not even close.

-megan.

I admit it

Mood: Okay...
iTunes: She's Like Heroin - System Of A Down

It's 100% impossible to be a good judge of your own pictures, I think. Or any art, for that matter. I don't know why, but I can't look at a picture that someone has told me is good and think it is. Maybe it's because I was there, and I saw it for what it really was, and I know that it really wasn't as cool as it seems. Maybe it's because I took the picture in such a way that it would look a lot better than it was.

Same with my writing. That's why I quit letting other people read what I've written, for the most part. They would tell me it was good, and I would never believe them. Ever. I don't think that anything I have ever written is any good, even though everyone I've let read it has told me it is.

I'm not saying any of this because I'm looking for compliments or I'm bragging. I do get complimented a lot on my pictures, and my writing, but I think I'm saying that I don't believe any of it.

And I kind of want to know when I get to start believing. Do I have to have a degree in it before I agree that yeah, maybe I have a little talent?

I think the reason I don't believe is because I'm not hearing it fom the right people. It means a lot, no matter who it's from, don't get me wrong. But I think that not hearing it from, like, my parents makes it a lot harder. Just because they're not saying it doesn't mean it's not true, or whatever, but...

I don't know. Nevermind.

-megan.

This is not a good day...

Mood: Pretty bad.
iTunes: Vicinity of Obscenity - System Of A Down

Yeah, so, pretty sure it's one of those days where I feel like absolute crap...As in like I'm nauseas, and i have a crazy headache, and I think that my internal organs are going to explode shortly, for various reasons I refuse/don't know enough to discuss.

And I fell down the stairs in the science building toay. It was mostly hilarious. And I broke my shoe...now I need to go buy new chucks.

Anyway. Bet you didn't know this was coming...

1. Slide - Goo Goo Dolls
2. Teenage Kicks [Cover] - Snow Patrol
3. Reactionary - Umbrellas - This is one band I'm glad I listened to. Normally when people reccomend artists, that makes me 100 times less likely to listen to them, but I tried this CD and it is one of the most amazing I have ever heard.
4. Get Stoned - Hinder - This song is entirely about sex and drugs. As in there is no other content. But I love it.
5. The Authority Song - Jimmy Eat World - This song makes me think of summer.
6. X - System Of A Down - I hated this song the first few times I heard it. It's not my favorite, but it's still good.
7. Always On My Mind - Phantom Planet - This song is adorable! That's all.
8. Beating Heart Baby - Head Automatica
9. I'm Not Okay (I Promise) - My Chemical Romance - This song reminds me of sumer as well. Usually I get tired of songs after the first million times I hear them, but for some reason I'm not tired of this one yet. Also it used to be my ringtone, so it still makes me want to answer my phone when I hear it.
10. Nothing I Say - Elevenestate - You've probably never heard of this band...and that's okay. I first heard them at a concert in this guy's basement...One of those thigns I'll be able to say when they're famous. Also the lead singer touched my hand. Um. On accident.
11. The Hardest Part - Coldplay
12. Hijo De La Luna - Sarah Brightman - I saw her in concert, at the Rose Garden in Portland, OR. It was mostly amazing.
13. Here I Am - The Explosion
14. Crazy In Love [Cover] - Snow Patrol - Their covers are just the best.
15. I Won't Ever Be Happy Again - Bright Eyes - Pretty sure that at the moment, this feels like my theme song. But tomorrow...

-megan.

An Independent Study Of Everett

Mood: Hurt
iTunes: Radio/Video - System Of A Down

I have the most amazing first period ever, I'm pretty sure. Basically it equals that I sit in a coffee shop/cafe of my choosing for an hour and do homework/read/eat/hang out with Lisa before I have to worry about being anywhere. Today we went and ate raspberry scones and peanut butter/chocolate chip cookies and discussed the states of our not-boyfriends. Her's is named Justin, and last night he told her he loved her-a big no-no if you're a not boyfriend, and not a real boyfriend.

...And mine...well. Is an idiot, mostly. His stepdad made him go to Virginia for a week because he doesn't trust him, or something. At any rate, I most likely won't see him again at all till February 14th. Provided he does in fact come back from Virginia. But I'm not that pessimistic.

But anyway. Also, spring break this year is going to be mostly amazing, because my family is going on vacation and leaving me home by myself for a week. Pretty sure we all know what that means...no curfew! And this excites me to no end.

-megan.

Not today...

Mood: BLECH.
iTunes: Atwa - System Of A Down

So. Anything I might say today is probably going to make me sound like some kind of deranged/depressed homicidal freak, so I'm gonna go with the whole shuffle thing..again. Because we both know you're so not sick of it yet. Here goes.

1. Alive & Amplified - The Mooney Suzuki - HOLYSHIT this is possibly the MOST amazing song ever. Well. Maybe not. But it's actually one of my favorites and I sort of forgot it existed...oops. Thank you, uh...whoever controls shuffling?
2. Line And Sinker - Billy Talent - Hmm. It's a good song. My little brother was the one who made me listen to it first. All his songs sounds...basically the same, so if you like one, you're set.
3. Chariot - Gavin DeGraw - I don't know why I'm not sick of this song yet. It's catchy, I guess.
4. Helter Skelter - The Beatles - This is actually my favorite Beatles song. I don't really know why, but it is. That creeps some people out, which doesn't really make sense to me, but whatver.
5. Fine Again - Seether - I saw them in concert once, and it was lame. But this song isn't too lame. Depressing and it kinda reminds me of when I was totally mental, but not quite lame.
6. Silhouette Serenade - Vendetta Red - This song is actually my ringtone. It made me cry at first, but now I just love it.
7. Grind On Me - Pretty Ricky - Um. I ahve no efelings for this song, really. I mean, it's good, I guess, kinda gross, but I'm too lazy to take it off my iPod.
8. Your Body - Pretty Ricky - Ok. The only two Pretty Ricky songs I have, out of 1272 songs total, and they play right after each other. Great. Really, Pretty Ricky is definitely not one of my favorites. For some reason it's important for you to know this.
9. Miserable - LIT - SAD. Well, not really, but at the same time. I think it's because I associate this song with times that were a lot funner and happier.
10. This Cocaine Makes Me Feel Like I'm On This Song - System Of A Down - I couldn't stand this song the first million times I heard it. Now it's one of my favorites. And actually, most of their songs are like that. They're just plain weird. But lovable.
11. Baby One More Time [Cover] - Bowling For Soup - I'm not entirely sure that Bowling For Soup is the actual artist. And I don't really care. It's good. And I can enjoy the song without people being all, "Ewww...Why is Britney Spears on your iPod? We're not friends anymore..."
12. For No One - The Beatles - Hmm...one of my favorite songs. Period. It's good.
13. Space - Something Corporate - In all honesty Something Corporate is one of my favorite bands ever. They are amazing. And this is probably my favorite song from them.
14. Stars And Boulevards - Augustana - I got this one for free from iTunes. I love it.It's amazing. The end.
15. Sweet Dreams Are Made Of These - Eurythmics - This song is one of two 80's songs that was good...if it even came from the 80s. Great. Now I don't even know, and I'm a liar, and I'm retarded. Anyway. The other one is by MC Hammer...And I think we all know which one I'm talking about.

There. See? Now you don't have to listen to me whine, for once. Instead you can read my boring playlists...Agh. Sorry. I have nothing interesting that is good to discuss.

-megan.