I admit it

Mood: Okay...
iTunes: She's Like Heroin - System Of A Down

It's 100% impossible to be a good judge of your own pictures, I think. Or any art, for that matter. I don't know why, but I can't look at a picture that someone has told me is good and think it is. Maybe it's because I was there, and I saw it for what it really was, and I know that it really wasn't as cool as it seems. Maybe it's because I took the picture in such a way that it would look a lot better than it was.

Same with my writing. That's why I quit letting other people read what I've written, for the most part. They would tell me it was good, and I would never believe them. Ever. I don't think that anything I have ever written is any good, even though everyone I've let read it has told me it is.

I'm not saying any of this because I'm looking for compliments or I'm bragging. I do get complimented a lot on my pictures, and my writing, but I think I'm saying that I don't believe any of it.

And I kind of want to know when I get to start believing. Do I have to have a degree in it before I agree that yeah, maybe I have a little talent?

I think the reason I don't believe is because I'm not hearing it fom the right people. It means a lot, no matter who it's from, don't get me wrong. But I think that not hearing it from, like, my parents makes it a lot harder. Just because they're not saying it doesn't mean it's not true, or whatever, but...

I don't know. Nevermind.

-megan.